How slow acting is this disease? Stiles was 8 when Claudia died, maybe 9 depending on dates/birthdays. Does he remember a time when she always knew who he was? Does he remember her singing to him, reading to him, hugging him? Does he remember her holding him when HE had nightmares? Tucking him in? Telling him she’d always love him?
Or does he only remember her forgetting him?
Does he only remember the first time she couldn’t pronounce his name? The first time she said, “that’s my father’s name! Honey, he has my father’s name?”
Does he only remember her screaming in the middle of the night? Hearing his dad’s murmurs, through the walls, and trying to muffle his sobs, feeling guilty when his dad came to check on him later, but also comforted, relieved, when his dad pulled him close and said, “I’ve got you, it’s okay,” and those big hands rubbed his back and he honestly thought everything would be okay, if they could just stay like that, the two of them, cuddled together in the dark, his mom’s soft snores floating through the open doorway?
Does he remember her whole and healthy, or only the slow descent into dementia, forgetfulness, paranoia? The day he had to teach her how to tie her shoes? Or when he cut her food for her? Or when he sat in the hospital, and his dad wasn’t there yet, and his mother looked at him out of sunken eyes, and asked him, “are you lost?” right before her body forgot how to breathe?
Does part of him almost want the disease himself, because it means eventually he’ll finally forget the day she died?